I’m really
good at procrastinating. In five days I’m leaving for a writing workshop in
Kansas, and my goal is to finish the current revision of my book by then. I’m over
halfway through, but I’ve still found some pretty good ways to procrastinate. Sunday
night I went to an evangelism training course thing. Last night I helped
my dad and a friend start building a storage cabinet for the church. And
tonight I’m writing this blog post instead of my novel. I’ve even got plans for
tomorrow night, and Friday as well.
So here I
am, listening to Switchfoot and writing about procrastination instead of
writing what I really should be writing right now. But there’ll be time for
that later.
Actually,
this isn’t a post about procrastination, so if you saw the title and were
hoping I’d have some great advice for you, sorry to let you down. All I can say
is just do it. It’s what I keep telling
myself.
And I will.
Right after this.
The real
purpose of this post is to put something that’s been bothering me for a while
about revision down on paper (or pixels). Here it goes:
My writing
friends are probably familiar with the phrase “kill your darlings.” For those
who aren’t, it should be made clear below. Anyway, as I said, I’m currently in the act of revising my
novel -- my 137,000 word, 620 page novel. Now that might sound impressive until you hear that a lot of that is unnecessary to the story -- and I mean a lot. In my first pass through, several chapters have
been chopped nearly in half. A lot of what I’m cutting out is fluff that I’m
glad to see go, because I can see how the story improves without it.
But there
are other scenes that are also unnecessary to the story, that I really, really like, that I’ve also had to cut. Why do I like them
so much? Because I love the characters the scenes are about. I have tons of
scenes where nothing happens,
where the characters simply interact, and I like that because it was the
characters that originally drew me to this story, not the plot. Even now I
don’t care for the plot all that much.
Now, character interaction is fine, to be sure; but as it is the reader would be bored because she’s been reading for
several pages and nothing’s happening. Because I have plans for this novel that require it to be read and judged, I’ve
had to cut down on these scenes. And it hurts.
Something
else I’ve had to trim (chop) are the descriptions. My book is told in first person by a man who, for the sake of
brevity, I will simply describe as the monster of Frankenstein. As far as he knows, he never existed
before he woke up with a scientist telling him he was the first “human robot.”
Because of this, everything the protagonist sees is with new eyes. He sees
things like trees, mountains, sky, skyscrapers, cars, for the first time.
I saw a
great opportunity here for vivid, even unique descriptions. And I still have
that opportunity, but to a smaller degree than I first thought. Long paragraphs describing things that we are already very familiar with gets boring after a
while, even if it’s all fascinating to the character who’s never seen anything
of the kind before. So these descriptions have shrunk for
the sake of pacing.
The result
of all this is that I feel like I’m losing what I loved about this story to
begin with: the character development. When I go back through for a second
revision I want to insert some of it back in, more intertwined with the action
of the story so that I can still have the characters without sacrificing the
pacing. But for now, I’m swinging a hatchet and wincing as the blows fall. While
I know that in the end my story will probably have benefited from the surgery, right
now I can only see what I’m losing. Until I send off my finished manuscript to
the judges, the rough draft may well be my favorite.
I’ve spent
43 minutes on this short post. Time to get back to work.
Kill your
darlings, kill your darlings, kill your darlings....
Great post - I'm excited about this novel - and yet I grieve with you. Hang in there.
ReplyDelete"All I can say is just do it."
ReplyDeleteo_o that's exactly what I say to myself.
It's really the only advice for procrastination I have. If only I could follow it more.
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